My birthday and other stuffs

My birthday was great. I got up and got dressed. I arrived at work 30 minutes early! My supervisor had asked me to come in so that I could help her get ready for an employee banquet that is this week end and so, I went and helped her out. I had to leave at 12:00 to go to a Doc appointment (everything is OK ... PTL!!!). I didn't get out of there until 2:30. I went back to work after that and I stayed until time to meet my friend Michelle at a local eatery! I had fun visiting with her and I really enjoyed the conversation. I came home restsed and cleaned!!

I also worked on a movie project that I've been working on for the past 2 weeks!! I'd really like it if you would watch it and give me your feed back!! Thanks!! Here is the link to the video!! Enjoy!!!

February 11 ~ An Interesting Day

Well, my family (Dad, Mom, BIL, Sister, niece) and I went trekking through the woods in one of our pastures to find a old home site that was supposedly there in the 1930's (according to Dad). Daddy had his metal detector (that detects iron as well) looking for stuff in the dirt that would prove that there was indeed a house there at one time. We came across this big piece of something. Daddy put the detector over it an it was going crazy! So, we started digging and we surmised that it was a rock. However, I'm not happy with that answer and I want to go digging around there some more. I mean, it could be a cover to a treasure chest full of gold!!! Well, probably not but, a girl can dream!

It was very windy but, you could not tell deep in the woods. When we got out o the woods, the wind was so strong that it nearly blew us over!! As we were walking and talking we came across some bricks and rocks (possibly a fireplace?)!

Daddy wanted us to go back through the woods to keep us out of the wind. I'm glad that he did cause at the edge of the woods, I saw a balloon and it had a ribbon and tied to the ribbon was a laminated piece of paper. I looked at the tag and it had a picture of this girl and her name and it said Nicollette J. D. and it gave her birth year and death year. I came home and googled her. It only took me 30 seconds to do this. Come to find out, this gir had died 10 days ago (tomorrow). However, the internment was Thursday so when I found the balloon, it had only been 2-3 days (if y'all can follow that)! That balloon traveled across Mississippi all the way to little Headland. Isn't the wind patterns awesome??? God is amazing!!!

BTW, the balloon gave me an idea. One day, I'm going to buy a balloon put a string on it, write a letter and stick it in a envelope and laminate it and send it on its way and maybe someone some where will find it and write back. I dont know when I am going to do this though

Forcing Myself

I received a very nice and heart felt letter from a member of my church. In it she tells me to trust God and make him MY EVERYTHING!! MY ALL!! MY PROVIDER and COMFORTER!! MY JEHOVAH JIREH (sp)!!! MY HEALER!! She also tells me to love him, tell him that I want whatever His will is for my life, that I want to grow closer to him everyday! No matter how my life unfolds, I know that I belong to God!!! He is mine and I am His!! I needed this letter. It is true that while I was reading and and while Momma read it to me that I was crying!!

Now,here comes the forcing myself part:

I'm having to force myself not to think about him (my-ex).
I'm having to constantly stay focused on things because if I don't, I will think about him.
I'm having to constantly pray to God to take this heart ache away!

This is not going to be easy for me but, I will get over it .... one day. I'm not afraid to admit that I still cry at night but, Its just like the chorus of the song "Blessings" by Laura Story says:

Cause what if Your blessings come through raindrops
What if Your healing comes through tears?
And what if a thousand sleepless nights
Are what it takes to know You're near?

Also, the song by Kari Jobe "Healer":

You hold my every moment
You calm my raging seas
You walk with me through fire
And heal all my disease

I trust in You
I trust in You

I believe You're my healer
I believe You are all I need
I believe You're my portion
I believe You're more than enough for me
Jesus, You're all I need

You hold my every moment
You calm my raging seas
You walk with me through fire
And heal all my disease

I trust in You
I trust in You

I believe You're my healer
I believe You are all I need
I believe You're my portion
I believe You're more than enough for me
Jesus, You're all I need

Nothing is impossible for You
Nothing is impossible for You
Nothing is impossible for You
Nothing is impossible for You

Lessons Learned

It's better to have loved and lost than never to have loved at all

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If you love something, let it go
If it comes back, it's yours
If it doesn't, it never was

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That was something Momma used to tell me all the time but, I didn't feel like I needed it until now.

Yes, I love something (or someone) so very much that I'm willing to let it (him) go. His happiness to me is more important than his unhappiness. I'm going to miss him. He was the best boyfriend that I've ever had!

The lessons I learned?

1. Don't go to fast. I was enjoying just being friends. I didn't want that to end.
2. Be yourself. I was always myself. I am who I am and you can take me or leave me.
3. Don't be clingy! Guys don't like that and it will just drive them away.
4. Don't bug them! I think I was bugging someone to much and I didn't know it and he didn't bother to tell me.
5. Don't beliieve a guy when he says "I love you" after the 3rd week of dating!!

These are the lessons that I learned!

I hope that I can still be friends with him!

Do I still love him? Yes!! Most definitely!! I love him enough to let him go even though it hurts!! I'm giving this to God and if it is His will for us to get back together then, I believe that we will ... atleast I hope!! :D