I miss Marc!!

Well, the truth is out!! I cried myself to sleep last night!! This is not the first time though. I cried the night before last night. I was remembering all the good times we had together. We rode horses, worked on the bull dozier (before a date), worked on fence and we just laughed and talked! All these memories came flooding back! I just lost it and cried myself to sleep.

I asked Jessica this morning if she heard me and she said no. Then she asked "Why do you keep asking me that questions? I mean, its almost like you want me to notice." I said "No, its not tat I want you to notice its just that I was hopping that I was not bothering you" She said "Oh, ok"

I've been listening to a song lately that has really helped me when I am down! The person who sings it is Laura Story. I've heard this song a few times on the local christian radio station.

Here is the song:


We pray for blessings, we pray for peace
Comfort for family, protection while we sleep
We pray for healing, for prosperity
We pray for Your mighty hand to ease our suffering

All the while You hear each spoken need
Yet love is way too much to give us lesser things

'Cause what if Your blessings come through raindrops
What if Your healing comes through tears?
What if a thousand sleepless nights
Are what it takes to know You're near?

What if trials of this life
Are Your mercies in disguise?

We pray for wisdom, Your voice to hear
We cry in anger when we cannot feel You near
We doubt Your goodness, we doubt Your love
As if every promise from Your Word is not enough

And all the while You hear each desperate plea
And long that we'd have faith to believe

'Cause what if Your blessings come through raindrops
What if Your healing comes through tears?
And what if a thousand sleepless nights
Are what it takes to know You're near?

And what if trials of this life
Are Your mercies in disguise?

When friends betray us, when darkness seems to win
We know that pain reminds this heart
That this is not, this is not our home
It's not our home

'Cause what if Your blessings come through raindrops
What if Your healing comes through tears?
And what if a thousand sleepless nights
Are what it takes to know You're near?

What if my greatest disappointments
Or the aching of this life
Is the revealing of a greater thirst
This world can't satisfy?

And what if trials of this life
The rain, the storms, the hardest nights
Are Your mercies in disguise?