Christmas in Heaven

I did not hear about the shooting in Connecticut until later Friday night/early Saturday morning when I got on FB and saw that everyone was talking about it. I asked Momma about it and she told me. I was so sad! I have a huge place in my heart for kids (even though they do drive me crazy sometimes)! It broke my heart that someone so heartless would do that to innocent children! I cried! My hat goes off to all the first responders and to the brave teachers who risked their lives (and died) to save the kids! Anyway, this song by Scotty McCreery as been stuck in my head constantly since the shooting. It's a absolutely beautiful song! Here it is:

December hasn't changed  

This town looks the same  

They still light that tree in the city square 

There's red, white, and green shining everywhere 

And I wish you were here  

And I wonder.....

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Is the snow falling down on the streets of gold  

Are the mansions all covered in white  

Are you singing with angels silent night 

 I wonder..... what Christmas in Heaven is like

 
There's a little manger scene 

Down on Third and Main  

I must've walked right by it a thousand times  

But I see it now in a different light 

'Cause I know you are there 

And I wonder......

 
Are you kneeling with shepherds before Him now 

Can you reach out and touch His face  

Are you part of that glorious holy night 

 I wonder..... What Christmas in Heaven is like

 
Is the snow falling down on the streets of gold 

Are the mansions all covered in white 

Are you singing with angels silent night  

Oh I wonder.... What Christmas in Heaven is like

Lord, please be with the families of the children who were killed! Be with the teachers who remain and block all flashbacks and terrors from their mind! Also, please be with the children who remain! Bring them all peace and comfort this Christmas season!  Please be with them, Father. In your name I pray, A-men

 

Christmases Past/Present aka Christmas On the Farm

When I was growing up, we had a very huge Christmas. Well, it was huge to a little kid. Just the 5 of us (Daddy, Momma, my sister, my brother and me!) We had a great time. Family would come over and bring their gifts . Below is a couple of pictures:

 Christmas 1989. I loved that little bear (sitting in a chair). His name is Teddy Ruxpin. 

He was so fun to play with. You'd stick a cassette tape in his back and he would move his mouth to the words! It was so cool to a little kid! I had fun sticking my fingers in his mouth so that he could "chew" them but, he eventually tore up from me doing that so much!

Getting the family Christmas Tree. I had so much fun! I loved it.

Snow in 1989!! The first snow that I remember!!! OK, so, it was a dusting but, a little of the white stuff fell ..... You know, I think that my Daddy looks rather dashing in a beard .....  don't you? :) Just sayin' ;)

~ Now to the blog post ~

*** I realize some might not understand this next part. I guess you just had to grow up with 2 way radios ..... ***

LOL!! I remember calling my Uncle on our 2 way radio (Yes, way before Southern Linc's and beep beep phones (even cell phones were popular) See, we (the house) were "base" and my Uncle was "Unit 2" and I remember getting the two mixed up all the time. I would always say (never failed): "Unit base to 2, come in Uncle Dale! I would do the same thing to Daddy but, he was "Unit 1". I would then ask my Uncle if there was going to be a hayride that Christmas. I really enjoyed the hayride!


Another funny story: My cousin Jake was the umpire at the softball game I was playing (I was not good at it). I did not know before hand and apparently, if I told anyone, they'd have to get a new umpire so, I did not tell a soul! Anyway, every time I went up to bat, he'd talk to me. It was very annoying! I mean, come on ..... I thought that David would help me not hurt me ..... Oh well! We all laugh about it now!

Wow, I chased a rabbit there. ANYWAY .....

Christmas has changed for my family as each one of my siblings have moved away. I don't get to see my sister as much as I did in the past. She used to go to school in a town not far from here and she would come home on the holidays of course but, it was not lik having her 24/7. I mean, not that I remember much of that cause she was 9 when I was born so, I don't think that she had much to do with me (that is just my opinion and does not mean it was true. I just may not be remembering right). I miss seeing my sister at Christmas time!

When my brother and his wife lived in Texas, I didn't get to see them much cause with his job (working at UPS) he only had Christmas day off so, we didn't get to see him as much. I think that he might have come home one Thanksgiving One other Thanksgiving, we met them at my sisters house in N.C. because they flew in from Texas

Then, however, it's dwindle down to just me. I was lonely with no one here but, Daddy, Momma and myself (and occasionally Grandma). It was like, Christmas was just another day. There were presents to be sure but, not as many as there used to be. It would get depressing!Even watching all the Christmas movies that I have did not help! It does not have to be like that and it should NOT be like that! You need to be around family during Christmas time! LOTS of family!!!

Since my brother and his wife have moved back home, I look forward to having Christmas with them again! His sweet little son especially! Oh, I just love him!!! Oh, and his wife too! :D We are to have a Christmas like the Christmas we used to have ..... well kinda. My sister and her family wont be here so, it wont be the same but, it will be like our Christmases of old no less.

"They say, the older you get, the faster it goes" ~ Daddy

A Note of Thankfulness!

A Thanksgiving Thank You

From The Miller Family to yours!! 

I have begun this letter in my mind and on paper hundreds of time but I guess it is fitting that I have never been able to find the words till TONIGHT. One year ago the meaning of Thanksgiving complete changed for my family and me. One year ago tonight Mary Beth had been in surgery for 5 hours at this point and was in the operating room for another 7 hours. We could have never imagined how much our lives would have changed in just a year. I never thought a year ago that it was the last time I would ever hear my precious daughter tell me she loves me or the last time I would ever hear her call me Daddy. Wow, how things change in just a year. 

On August 18, 2011 my daughter went back into congestive heart failure and had to be flown to UAB once again. From that point Mary Beth and her mom had to live in the hospital fulltime until she received her GIFT of a new heart. We were praying that even thought a family would be experiencing the worst tragedy of their lives by losing their child that they would love us enough to share a part of their child with us to give Mary Beth a chance at life. Wow, how things have change in just a year.
This day began a year ago with Stacee calling me having bad day. She was crying and asking me if I thought we would get a heart and I did something I have never done in our marriage. I lied. I promised her we were getting a heart before this month was over and that everything would be ok. I did not believe what I was telling her because I thought our time with Mary Beth was almost over. At this point I had lost my faith. After we hung up I pulled my car over into a rest stop and sat there crying. Mary Beth was getting so weak, so weak to the point that she never wanted to get out of bad. I cannot begin to understand how bad Mary Beth was feeling or understand why she was becoming so very emotional. One of her Doctors had told me that was not uncommon in people who were losing their fight and he told me that we had to find her a new heart SOON. Then at 10:14am I received a phone call from Stacee, when I saw her name on my caller ID my just heart sank, because I was sure of what she was about to tell me but what she told me surprised me just the same. She asked what I was doing and could I leave work, when I asked why she said the news that we and all of you had been praying so many months for. Mary Beth was going to receive her GIFT. Wow, how things have change in just a year.

Mary Beth received her GIFT of a new heart, she received her chance at a life but God had a different plan for our family. As most everyone knows Mary Beth received a brain injury while in surgery. So we went from a little girl that could walk, use an ipad, feed herself and talk to the point where she could say the word cardiologist and knew what it meant. Now we have a little girl that can no longer do any of those things and as some of you know her Doctors are telling us that they no longer believe she will ever recover from her injuries. We don’t believe that! God has plan for her and our family and as we have always said “As long as she Fights, We Fight!”

The Father has given Mary Beth a heart that is stronger than anything we could have hoped for and her Donor, Hanaleigh Suttles, every day is giving her the strength to fight through this injury. I as tell everyone Hana and Mary Beth are HEART SISTERS! We Love You Hana!

So what are you thankful for this year? We are thankful to everyone in the Wiregrass area for their cards, donations and most of all YOUR PRAYERS! Stacee and I have humbled by everyone from our HOMETOWN and what they have done for us. When we moved up here we had no church family, no family, just a few friends and without each of you that have shared your hearts with us we would have never been able to survive this. There have been so many people that have shared themselves with us during this last year that if I tried to mention everyone by name I am sure I would miss someone. SO THANK YOU FROM OUR FAMILY! We love each of you and you have given us one more reason to be proud to be from the Wiregrass. We are thankful to our Donor family who loved us while they were going through the worst time in their lives. On 11/20/11 they lost 6 of their family members but through that tragedy they changed 17 people’s lives and gave them a second chance at life.

So what are you thankful for this year? We are thankful that we have our family together, We are thankful for our friends from “back home”, We are thankful for our new friends in Birmingham that have been praying for us, We are thankful for the chance to fight, We are thankful to Mary Beth’s “New” family in Pleasant Garden, NC, We are thankful that people have taken the time to pray for our little girl, but most of all WE ARE THANKFUL TO THE FATHER FOR WALKING WITH US ON THIS JOURNEY!

So as your family prepares to celebrate Thanksgiving remember this, We are praying for each of you and are forever in your debt for everything the Wiregrass has done for us. And remember this, “Wow, How things can change in just a year.”
 

Mark Miller
Dad to Mary Beth, 7
34 weeker, 3.6 pounds
Tricuspid Atresia with a Hypoplastic Right Ventricle, Un-repairable AV Canal, VSD, Dual SVC’s, Interrupted IVC, Malrotation of her liver and spleen, Tricuspid Left Valve and Chromosome Deletions
6 Open Heart Surgeries, 283 medical procedures
Transplant with her Heart Sister 11/23/11

Mary Beth Miller

NOTE: I don't know much about what I'm talking about. I'm not a nurse so, I don't know all the medical terms!

This little girl is so resilient (sp). She is a fighter! She is awesome. She is an angel and she would not be here today (I don't think) had it not been for a little "heart sister" named Hannah. She was born a preemie and had to stay in UAB for a long time. I don't know how much she weighed but, I do know that she was a preemie. She has a heart defect. I think that it is called Chorea. She was on a heart machine for so long that ..... I guess that it caused brain injury. She can't speak walk or eat on her own. Anyway, she was in Atlanta for a MRI and she was rushed to the hospital in Atlanta (CHOA).

I spoke to Mary Beth once. I called to talk to her Mom to see how MB was doing and I spoke with Mary Beth! Oh, what I would give to hear her again!!! I know that her parents would just love to hear their daughters voice again! Please folks, don't take your children's voices for granted. You never know when they will be taken away! Give your children hugs and don't pass up a chance to hear your children say "I love you, Daddy/Momma"!!

Oh blog, I have missed thee!!

I know that it has been a while since I wrote to you but, please give me a break. It's been "Harvest Time", I've been hauling peanuts to "My Town", I've had fun driving my "International Harvester" (CHEVY truck)!! I've had as much as 15 cars lined up behind me like a big parade hauling peanuts though! I'm a "Farm Girl" and also a "Farmer's Daughter". I love "Georgia Peaches". "Daddy's Hands" are like leather but, they are nice to hold! 


(All the words in "" marks are all country songs. ALSO: I don't condone the words in "Farm Girl" but, I hope that you get the point!)

*sigh*

Anyway, the peanuts will be done as soon as we finish up 20 acres. We still have cotton to go but, I wont be needed as much (maybe.

~ Love, ~
~ Kate ~

~~~~~ OK, now back to your regularly scheduled blog posts ~~~~~

10/31/12 ~ OY VEY, what a day! Hey, that rhymes ...... Red got out! What is it about fall?? I guess the kudzoo looks greener on the other side of the fence ....  One of our employees called me (yesterday) to tell me that he was out. Well, I had just pulled a trailer to the local co-op and I had picked a a empty when I got the call. So, I went to their house (the empty trailer still attached to the truck) and parked on the road and I went and they showed me where he was. Needless to say, when he saw me, he high tailed (or lazily tailed) it back to the pasture. He made a trail yesterday through the woods so, he followed it back around to the pasture and was back in as soon as I got the truck and trailer parked and went down there. After that, I was off the rest of the day.

11/1/12 ~ Anyway, I woke up at 6:58, to getting a text message from one of the neighbors saying that my horse was out and in there yard ..... again! I should point out that he got out yesterday too!!

 

This morning when I went to go get him, I took the gator (um, kinda like a ATV) to the neighbors house (yes, I know I'm repeating a little) and when I got in there, he was in the pasture but, the fence is down so, he could walk in or out! I tried to get him to follow the gator but, that did not work so, I had to leave the gator on the neighbors property and walk Red home (which was not far). I have 2 separate pastures (for lack of a better way to describe it) and one part is a field with grass in it (and also his food and water) then the rest is a pasture for grazing. I have Red in the field. I might work on horse fence this week end. Anyone wanna help with the fence??? We are not picking tomorrow ... taking a break.

Side note: This is one of those rare times when I wish that I had someone (a guy) that could help me with this sorta thing .....

I'm really hoping that y'all can understand this post! It's OK if y'all don't. I barely understand it myself!! Just remember .... please be lenient